So many problems in our lives so much to do so many worries.. BUT than it all stops when someone you love is sick all the problems slip to the back ther is only one thing you can think of only one care ... A few months ago my five year old rotty had a seizure , just one so i thought it was a fluke maybe it would go away. No , after three months they came back ! Not just one either she had three in one day. So I talked with the vet and well long story short he said she probably had a brain tumor but the tests were expensive like over 15oo.oo and than there was no saving her. So here I am nearly letting her outside, filling her food bowls, and waking to her liking me in the face at 2 a.m.. .. Beacause a few days ago she had 8 seizures in less than 24 hours and I was forced to take her to the vet and end all this pain. So on 01/27/05 Ashley Rest In Peace .... Beacause it is winter I had to have her cremated , in the spring I will bury her next to my other doggy and my parents doggie. So for now I miss her already and am really sad about the whole thing .. Nothing I could do but what I did..

Oh yay and add the flu back into the mix.. I puked last night at 3 am and than my four year old puked this morning. YAY .. and I have to study for algebre

Meds are wonderful., well that  and a few days rest. I am feeling a bit better, 6 year old is all better, and four year old also alll better. Hubby and I still a tad bit stuffy, but can't complain. Considering I have bronchitus. **) Thanks to

This weeks coldness makes last weeks seem nearly warm , Yay!

   Now I am sick and so is my 4 year old .. And just let me take a moment to really say I hate pharmicies. I took the 4 year old to the Dr yesterday and was done at the pharmacy to getr perscriptions filled by 2:00 .. But holy shit ,,, the said to come back at 4 30 to pick them up.. OK I say and do so . Well here it was 4 30 and I was at the pharmacy and are they ready tp PICK up ? NO NO NO I had to still wait til nearly 6 00 before they were ready plus I must have watched 20 other people pick up their perscriptions !! Than on top of it they didn't even have 2 of them there and they could order it ,, I had to get home with the tylenol at least I mean this child had a fever and was puking not fun for him or me who also had a fever .. So to all the pharmacies and pharmacists ... You are the suppliers of the meds ! If you can not do so correctly you should be held liable .. I took advantage and got my kid to the Dr asap with the proper timing he wouldn't have had a fever for so long. and I wouldn't have been so aggrevaited.

       But on a happier note ... I got home ate dinner got the meds to kids and myself and yay this morning after a long night of hanging out with the four year old while he puked every hour on the hour... we are all feeling 50 % better this morning ... And the 6 year old is all the way better so he is off to a friends house for the day YAY and night too double YAY and well (shit eating grin ) hopefully the four year old will still be ill enough to go to bed early and we will get some down time ourselves..

Okie dokies people take care driving it looks like crazy white out world  driving...

Yay First day back to classes and no major troubles. It was pretty freakin COOLD I mean brrrrrrr ! And my winshield wiper thankfully NOT driver side is now not working Why ??? I dunno . Just more of life I guess. Plus son well he is feeling a little better but he did go to Dr. and no biggie just ur common flu bug viral stuff or something goofy like that . Gave him some meds and he was good to go back to school. Hubby on the other hand is now sick.

** A note to any guys who feel the need to chat at me , Yes toYOU I am totally GAY jeepers can ya have some class what's with the "you can sit on my face and all that !!!" a message I have recieved from the first male contact here.. YAY ,, really Now   I think NOT

 Woman on the other hand drop me a note any time , I aim to please...

              Hi anyone who peers into my world.. This morning I awoke to an empty bed. This I haven't done in soooo long I can not remember the last time. Since I have been living with my husband for over ten years I guess it's been that long. As I awoke I gathered my bearings and looked out the window. Hu! A new blanket of snow I knew where he was now. Outside at 6 am outside getting the plow on his truck. So here it is nearly the end of January and it is time for some real plowing.

                On another unhappy note my 6 year old is sick. He has been sick since Friday. He had a day off from school today anyway so that's all good. But I have to bring him to the Dr. today. I am sure it is nothing to worry about but I hope he is better tomarrow. Since tomarrow is my first day back to classes at collegeand I have no clue who will watch him if he has to stay home again. So what to do what to do ???? I need a babysitter , soon asap! Don't know what to do ! I can't totally afford it, but I can not afford NOT to either . I need to get a job be more supportive to my Family. I have spent the last couple years in college. Doing what aquiring more debt I suppose.

 Ahhh Yes cold winter days how they suck I look out side and think of all I can not do.